Music has always been my anchor — the rhythm I’ve clung to in my deepest dissociative voids. After a four‑month episode in 2022, I turned to therapy, psilocybin, and music to begin piecing myself back together. By 2025, AI became my creative ally, helping me transform memories and emotions into songs that tell my story.
Every track begins with a raw moment: I pour my experience into words, AI drafts lyrics in my voice, and together we shape beats, vocals, and mood until the music feels true. That same collaboration creates the visuals for my videos, blending generative art with lived memory so each release is a complete chapter.
What started as an experiment has become Forging Rhythm — my evolving soundscape. Rap currently carries my anger and defiance, but as I heal, new genres emerge: R&B for reflection, reggae for hope, and whatever sound speaks to the next chapter.
These songs aren’t just music — they’re milestones. Each one marks where I’ve been, what I’ve faced, and how I keep moving forward. My sound evolves as I do — mapping a journey that’s still unfolding.
“The Four Horsemen” begins a five-part audio journey into my fracture with Dissociative Identity Disorder. This chapter introduces the first alter rising from the shadows, voiced through haunting layers and textured soundscapes. It is both an invocation and a confrontation, the opening of The Chair Movement where hidden voices step into light. Every rhythm is drawn from lived experience, transforming trauma into resonance, silence into sound. This is not just music—it is survival set to rhythm.
“Calm in the Chaos” is Chapter 2, introducing my alter Michael. This track captures the fragile pause between silence and fracture — a moment where tension and stillness collide. Michael’s presence emerges through layered tones and uneasy rhythms, reflecting the fight to hold balance while voices shift within. Each note is a meditation on survival, a fleeting calm before the storm of multiplicity deepens, and a call to witness the complexity of living with DID.
“Laugh So You Don’t Cry” is Chapter 3, introducing my alter Tate. This track reveals the defense of humor as survival—where laughter hides pain and defiance masks despair. Tate’s voice rises through sharp beats, raw flows, and uneasy rhythms that carry both wit and weight. Behind the jest is the fracture, a reminder that comedy can be both armor and confession. This song embodies the tension of living with DID—where irony protects the wounded and every laugh echoes a truth too heavy to say aloud.
“Juxtaposition” is Chapter 4, introducing my alter Little Chris. His world lives in contrast—innocence and pain, humor and darkness, survival and vulnerability. This track mirrors that duality through layered beats and shifting tones, capturing the tension of living small yet feeling immense weight. Juxtaposition is the collision of voices within, the struggle of being seen while hiding in shadow. It is Little Chris stepping forward, defiant yet fragile, turning fracture into sound.
“Drop Dead Fred” closes chapter 5, introducing my alter Fred with raw intensity. This track embodies chaos unmasked—reckless energy, biting humor, and defiant rage erupting in sound. Fred’s presence is both destructive and liberating, a force that tears down walls but also refuses silence. Through pounding rhythms and sharp contrasts, this finale unites every fracture explored before it. “Drop Dead Fred” is the culmination of my alters’ emergence—unapologetic, unfiltered, and unforgettable.
Arrow Lane is where my story fractures—one dead-end trailer park off 103rd in Jacksonville, now swallowed by trees, rust, and quiet. This song walks that road with me again: past caved-in roofs, overgrown lots, broken windows, and the echo of a nine-year-old who learned to float out of his own body just to survive.
“Arrow Lane” forges that break into rhythm. It sits between Deep South blues and storytelling hip-hop, pulling you through fear, dissociation, and the long walk back toward reclaiming yourself. Every verse is another step through those woods, every hook a reminder that survival isn’t an accident—it’s an art we learn to practice, one beat at a time.
This track starts at the break—the moment the world stopped making sense and my mind learned to split just to stay alive. It moves through blackout memories, half-lit rooms, and the echo of a kid who disappeared on the inside long before anyone noticed on the outside. The beat carries all of it: the panic, the distance, the small flashes of color that refused to die.
What you’re hearing is that fracture forged into rhythm. It sits between Deep South blues and storytelling hip-hop, shaped by my work on Forging Rhythm and the voices of The Four Horsemen. Every verse is another step through dissociation toward daylight; every hook is a reminder that survival isn’t luck—it’s a craft. This isn’t just a song, it’s a map out of the dark, written in bass lines and scars.
“Hidden in Plain Site” is my life laid bare through the lens of Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)—an intimate sonic memoir where fractured voices step forward as poetic narrators of trauma, survival, and slow repair. Co-created with AI, every raw vocal, restrained beat, and recurring empty-chair motif reflects the ongoing work of integration and self-reclamation, one fragment at a time.
This isn’t just a song—it’s a living document of DID, guiding you through the hidden corridors of memory and the long walk toward wholeness.
“Fractured Souls” lives where my mind splits and reconnects in real time—a sonic snapshot of what it feels like to carry more than one voice inside the same skin. Built within the Forging Rhythm universe, this track lets those voices step forward one by one: some raw and exposed, some guarded and distant, all circling the same memories from different angles.
Co-created with AI, “Fractured Souls” layers shifting tones, call-and-response phrases, and moments of near-silence to mirror dissociation and the slow work of coming back to yourself. It isn’t about “fixing” the fracture—it’s about acknowledging it, honoring each part that kept me alive, and tracing the lines where those pieces start to talk to each other again. This track is less a performance and more a pulse: a document of DID in motion, moving toward integration one bar, one breath, one voice at a time.
Step inside the pulse of my creative process—where healing turns into sound and every track breathes from the fractures that shaped me. Forging Rhythm is my story told in motion: AI-collaborated music built from the same dissociation, memory, and survival that drive my photographs and The Chair Movement. Each song starts as a raw moment on the page and grows into a shared language between me and my alters, The Four Horsemen. As part of this circle, you’ll be first to hear work in progress—unreleased tracks, limited audio drops, and private listening sessions that follow how the music shifts alongside recovery. Every layer, from lyric to tone, mirrors an inner dialogue between voices that once protected me separately and are now learning to create together. You’ll also get a behind-the-scenes look at studio experiments, rough sketches, and visual pairings that connect directly to the images on Fotobudz.com. This isn’t just about hearing songs; it’s about feeling survival find its rhythm—one beat, one frame, one memory at a time.
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